upall this stuff about being good or bad never works. nobody can say for sure how to be a good person and to act nice with people u love and need. it's easy to make everyone think that u'r a good one. it's really difficult to show people the truth about urself. sometimes they just don't believe u. u want to warn them but they think that u need some sort of compliment, they say it like "u'r nice" or "c'mooon that's not true" and u start thinking maybe they're right. maybe they just see deeper.
i'm fucking pure evil. i make people suffer all the time and i have no bloody idea how to stop it. God, it's the worst thing ever. all good things i ever did were just to make me feel better. sometimes i think about all this stuff in my head and realize that it always stays here, with me. i'm cruel, i really am. selfish. blind. rude.
Maybe you're not the good guy pretending to be a bad guy. Maybe you're the bad guy pretending to be the good guy./c/
i don't want to be myself. i've never wanted. sometimes i hate myself so much and so deep, i really wonder why i can't change my life for another one.
would it be any better?
@музыка:
Wrap me in a bolt of lightning, send me on my way still smiling. Maybe that's the way I should go, straight into the mouth of the unknown